User blog:Mockingjay1001/.....

.........This took me awhile to think about.. Should I quit? And not come back? Or stay?

I chose quitting. This wikia has not helped me get anywhere in life--and it's only helped me feel worse about myself. I'm done with it, I really am. No joke. I cried, and I cried, I cried till' my stomach hurt and I was gasping for air. And I made my final and only decision. That I'm done. If you're thinking right now, "What a drama queen, she's coming back in less than a week." Then you're wrong, because I'm never coming back to stay ever again. I might comment every once in awhile;but I'm not staying. I'm considering leaving my wiki up still, but not using it anymore because I won't be active on it. This was a hard decision--it's hard to let something go when you love it so much. I won't be celebrating my first year on the wiki, or the wiki's 1st birthday. Because let's face it - everyone pretty much hates me on here. Lil'Nan hates me (I can so tell) Katebith hates me, Candifloss hates me, and people in general just hate me.

"You're fat. You're ugly. Eww a you look anorexic. You will never have a future. No guy will ever fall for you. Just get out of my life. My life has been ruined because you were in it. Why are you even born?"

....I've been told ALL those things right in my face. This bullying... It's gotten too bad.. Same goes as cyber-bullying. I can't take it anymore. I cut. I tried to end it for myself. But it doesn't work.. Because I know I'm he for a reason..I don't know what that reason is though.

I told my little sister that I cut last night.. She started crying and said "Each time you cut, you're cutting others too." I'm going to tell my parents about my issues. And I know that they will help me. This depression is...enough.. When I'm not smiling, I'm crying. Because I have absolute no friends that will help me. My friends in real life are mean to me, and so on the internet. I only caught one true friend on this wikia, which is Zuesdemigod2002. She actually gets it, and is so kind to me when I'm down. While you guys have sympathy, but lose that sympathy a week later. Only Zues is my real friend on here.. As bad that sounds. :/ Candifloss.. You've made me laugh a dozen times, but laughing doesn't cure depression. And you been also so mean to me. That I've just sat down in my room and cried. Those words you said to me the other day, I was crying. It looked as if I didn't care--but I did. And I wanted to cut, but I chose not to. This wiki is full of hate on here. If no one is smiling, then it's either hate. Candifloss, please don't get mad at me, but you've made me so sad in my life. And made my depression worse. REAL FRIENDS don't bring their friends down.

So this is it..I am really done. Goodbye everyone.

Forever in my heart, Isabella